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  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: silence
  • Reading: my own words
The last three weeks have been rather tough.  Youngest broke his elbow, Thanksgiving and all the holiday stress with it,  Design II finals, & finally home life issues.  The elbow will heal, Thanksgiving comes and goes, finals can be passed or failed(I passed).  The last one though is the toughest.  I entered into a business arrangement without talking with the one person who I should have first, my wife :iconlilwashu287:

I love my wife, and anybody who has ever chatted with me either on here, or in person, knows that I love her and always talk fondly of her.  I hold to the idea of always being by the side of the one you love, no matter what: sickness, health, anger, happiness, sadness, joy, depression, exhilaration, shit getting thrown at you, love tackles, punches being hurled your way, kisses to the cheek before leaving, verbal assaults, compliments galore.  Because I am willing to endure so much, I forget that it blinds me as well.  A person poses provocatively, I say "You look sexy".  It's words, and beyond that, it has no meaning to me.  I see an angry person, I say, "Well you look pissed."  Not the smartest things to say, but honesty is the best medicine.  I pass a confused person, and I'll stop and say "You need some help, you look a little lost."  These are examples of things I say that I don't really give a second thought to, I call it like I see it.  I live, observe, and try not to get crushed in the daily grind of it all.

I don't know how these traits relate to surviving life, but they have gotten me to where I am today.  However now, I'm realizing more and more that they are not helping me any more, but rather hurting me now.  The issue is, I'm married, and my naivete, clueless factor, inherent attempt to see good in people, has done tripped me up hard.

I like seeing the creative cosplays that people come up with to portray their favorite characters.  I have been in anime for 20 years now, and characters that I enjoyed seeing years ago, are no longer done.  I remember the first Anime Central when no Ryouga from Ranma 1/2 showed up in the cosplay contest.  It was sad, but times and likes change, and progress marches on.  This year, marking 20 years of being into anime, I thought to myself, I would try to find someway to bring back some of those older characters.  "Heroes of Cosplay" on the SyFY channel was showing that there was still this vibrant cosplay community out there, so I thought why not try and find a cosplayer that posted here on DeviantArt to try and sponsor.  The idea was that I would provide the funding, while the cosplayer would make the outfit and take pictures of it.  I thought at first I would try multiple different artists, but eventually decided to keep it at one for simplicity sake.  They would get to keep the costume and add it to their inventory for con garb and I would get to see some old characters that I hadn't seen done in years.  It was a win-win scenario to me.

Well, after about 6 months of diving through the cosplay groups and folders on here, I decided to finally give it a shot with asking one of them.  Messages were exchanged for a couple weeks and a business outline was agreed on after a month or so.  The first one was completed in August, and we moved on to the second one.  I had some car issues on my end which delayed the start of the second one, but eventually it got started as well and mostly completed.  It was enough of the way done, that we had started talking about the third project, but it had never really gotten farther then just a quick mention.  Now, this seems straight up and nothing wrong, and to me, this is how I saw it.  To the cosplayer, I honestly believe this is how they saw it as well.

However now, this is where my wife entered into the picture.  That "call it like I see it" I mentioned earlier, well, that's where the tough part has come in.  The cosplayer was a woman, and some of the poses she did were "alluring" in both pose and body language.  I complimented her on those attributes, and moved on, never giving it a second thought.  I was married, she was in a long-term relationship with a boyfriend(I recently found out fiance) and we had both made it clear that this was a business deal and nothing more.  She always gave the impression that my compliments were just that and never gave them a second thought.  My wife though, she saw this: cheating, an affair, unfaithful, me shacking up with a "whore", a girlfriend on the side.  I ended the business deal, and have done everything in my power to show that this was nothing more then a business deal, but I think I'm losing the battle.

Two weeks ago, my wife said she would work with me and I would show through my actions that everything was on the up and up. Yesterday that started falling because a project that multiple artists are attached to, with one of them being the above mentioned cosplayer is about to go live.  Now to be honest, one of the other artists in this project is someone who I have chatted with off and on for I want to say close to 4 years now.  This project is the first time that I would actually have something of theirs SIGNED and in my hand in that 4 year span.  Now though, my wife is threatening to shred it upon even seeing it at our doorstep because of it's association.  Because of my interest in this project and the fact I paid for it months ago now has little deterred her resolve.

I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do, I don't know how to survive this.  I don't know anything any more.  Three children hang in the balance and I don't know how to save them, my wife, or myself.  I know I will not stop loving Bambi, I know I will not stop caring for her, and I know I will not stop fighting for her.  Those absolutes have sustained me, but I don't know if they will help me any more.
Slash Blackmane 2 by RLN
Slash Blackmane 2
So I finally got the kitty to stand straight for a picture.  Well, ok not really.  I just could NOT get a decent shot in game.  The best option I had was to get a capture of him on the character select screen with all the selection stuff hidden.  It worked, but it kind of takes him out of his Tyria element that he shared with the others :(

The armor shown here is I believe the Tier 2 cultural armor.  He has tier 3 as well, I just can't remember which is which, the Charr arnors start blending together after a while =p
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Aspen Cannalili by RLN
Aspen Cannalili
So a few months ago, I decided to cash in some gems and buy some character slots for 3 more characters.  Norn, Human, and Sylvari rounded out the three, basically to get one of each armor class for all 3 races.  Since I already had Sapphire in light, and Aquil in medium, I was left with heavy.  So, then that came down to guardian or warrior, I went warrior.  I didn't make her the same as Slash though, my charr warrior.  Aspen here revels in smashing things with that giant hammer and backs it up with some decent longbow skills.  The longbow is more of an occasional use item then actual weapon to her.  Aspen, loves, her hammer!

The armor is Sylvari Tier 2 heavy.  I liked the way it looked, so even though she isn't high enough level to wear it, i bought it anyways and applied the skin to her lower level armors until getting high enough to wear the Tier 2 suit.  I think it looks pretty awesome in black and white shades.
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Sapphire Orchid 2 by RLN
Sapphire Orchid 2
So as I mentioned in the new Khalari post, I came into some money in game.... about 1850g.  With that money, I decided to work on filling up one of the achievement trees.... Cultural Armor.  This here, is Sapphire sporting the lovely(and rather expensive) Sylvari Tier 3 armor.  I rather liked the way it came out looking, and it makes her seem more at home running about in Orr laying the undead low with some nasty Mesmer deception.
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Khalari Inferno 2 by RLN
Khalari Inferno 2
So Halloween in Tyria was good to me this year.  Picked up one of their new outfits that they had available, the Hexed Outfit, and managed to win one of the limited edition spooky Halloween skins for weapons.  It was worth a pretty penny.... or 1850g, which is an INSANE amount of game money.  Was able to buy a pre-cursor weapon for my main Vandala....I digress.

This is Khalari sporting the Hexed Outfit for women.  Has a nice Legend of the 5 Rings shugenja feel to it, especially when decked out in Sith colors.  With the re-balancing of the game for opening in China, and the outright death of the champ train in Queensdale, Khalari was eventually forced to leave the beautiful rolling hills of Queensdale for less desirable locations... such as Sparkfly Fen.  Lucky for her, the has a much more intimidating look now.
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  • Mood: Sadness
  • Listening to: silence
  • Reading: my own words
The last three weeks have been rather tough.  Youngest broke his elbow, Thanksgiving and all the holiday stress with it,  Design II finals, & finally home life issues.  The elbow will heal, Thanksgiving comes and goes, finals can be passed or failed(I passed).  The last one though is the toughest.  I entered into a business arrangement without talking with the one person who I should have first, my wife :iconlilwashu287:

I love my wife, and anybody who has ever chatted with me either on here, or in person, knows that I love her and always talk fondly of her.  I hold to the idea of always being by the side of the one you love, no matter what: sickness, health, anger, happiness, sadness, joy, depression, exhilaration, shit getting thrown at you, love tackles, punches being hurled your way, kisses to the cheek before leaving, verbal assaults, compliments galore.  Because I am willing to endure so much, I forget that it blinds me as well.  A person poses provocatively, I say "You look sexy".  It's words, and beyond that, it has no meaning to me.  I see an angry person, I say, "Well you look pissed."  Not the smartest things to say, but honesty is the best medicine.  I pass a confused person, and I'll stop and say "You need some help, you look a little lost."  These are examples of things I say that I don't really give a second thought to, I call it like I see it.  I live, observe, and try not to get crushed in the daily grind of it all.

I don't know how these traits relate to surviving life, but they have gotten me to where I am today.  However now, I'm realizing more and more that they are not helping me any more, but rather hurting me now.  The issue is, I'm married, and my naivete, clueless factor, inherent attempt to see good in people, has done tripped me up hard.

I like seeing the creative cosplays that people come up with to portray their favorite characters.  I have been in anime for 20 years now, and characters that I enjoyed seeing years ago, are no longer done.  I remember the first Anime Central when no Ryouga from Ranma 1/2 showed up in the cosplay contest.  It was sad, but times and likes change, and progress marches on.  This year, marking 20 years of being into anime, I thought to myself, I would try to find someway to bring back some of those older characters.  "Heroes of Cosplay" on the SyFY channel was showing that there was still this vibrant cosplay community out there, so I thought why not try and find a cosplayer that posted here on DeviantArt to try and sponsor.  The idea was that I would provide the funding, while the cosplayer would make the outfit and take pictures of it.  I thought at first I would try multiple different artists, but eventually decided to keep it at one for simplicity sake.  They would get to keep the costume and add it to their inventory for con garb and I would get to see some old characters that I hadn't seen done in years.  It was a win-win scenario to me.

Well, after about 6 months of diving through the cosplay groups and folders on here, I decided to finally give it a shot with asking one of them.  Messages were exchanged for a couple weeks and a business outline was agreed on after a month or so.  The first one was completed in August, and we moved on to the second one.  I had some car issues on my end which delayed the start of the second one, but eventually it got started as well and mostly completed.  It was enough of the way done, that we had started talking about the third project, but it had never really gotten farther then just a quick mention.  Now, this seems straight up and nothing wrong, and to me, this is how I saw it.  To the cosplayer, I honestly believe this is how they saw it as well.

However now, this is where my wife entered into the picture.  That "call it like I see it" I mentioned earlier, well, that's where the tough part has come in.  The cosplayer was a woman, and some of the poses she did were "alluring" in both pose and body language.  I complimented her on those attributes, and moved on, never giving it a second thought.  I was married, she was in a long-term relationship with a boyfriend(I recently found out fiance) and we had both made it clear that this was a business deal and nothing more.  She always gave the impression that my compliments were just that and never gave them a second thought.  My wife though, she saw this: cheating, an affair, unfaithful, me shacking up with a "whore", a girlfriend on the side.  I ended the business deal, and have done everything in my power to show that this was nothing more then a business deal, but I think I'm losing the battle.

Two weeks ago, my wife said she would work with me and I would show through my actions that everything was on the up and up. Yesterday that started falling because a project that multiple artists are attached to, with one of them being the above mentioned cosplayer is about to go live.  Now to be honest, one of the other artists in this project is someone who I have chatted with off and on for I want to say close to 4 years now.  This project is the first time that I would actually have something of theirs SIGNED and in my hand in that 4 year span.  Now though, my wife is threatening to shred it upon even seeing it at our doorstep because of it's association.  Because of my interest in this project and the fact I paid for it months ago now has little deterred her resolve.

I don't know what to say, I don't know what to do, I don't know how to survive this.  I don't know anything any more.  Three children hang in the balance and I don't know how to save them, my wife, or myself.  I know I will not stop loving Bambi, I know I will not stop caring for her, and I know I will not stop fighting for her.  Those absolutes have sustained me, but I don't know if they will help me any more.

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Zechariah Baker (aka Tenchi)
Artist | Student | Traditional Art
United States
Current game of choice : Guild Wars 2 (Tarnished Coast server)

Current Residence: St. Louis(well the suburbs, but my drivers license says St. Louis)
Favourite genre of music: Trance, Alternative, Rock(Hard/Heavy), British Pop, Anime OST
Favourite photographer: :iconsnowwhitesuicide: - :iconalexisrose:

Favourite render artists: :iconsaphirenishi: - :iconlooks-can-kill: - :iconx2gon: - :iconrgus:

Favourite models: :iconophelia-overdose: - :iconstephanie-van-rijn: - :icongestiefeltekatze:

Favorite cosplayers: :iconyayacosplay: - :iconriddle1: - :iconqueenriot:

Favorite guilty pleasure: :icontheresahelmer: - :iconbloddroppe: - :iconmordsithcara:

Favourite style of art: my own and :iconprecia-t: - :iconartgerm: - :icontoolkitten:
Operating System: XP
Shell of choice: hrmm... Koopa Troopa ^_^
Wallpaper of choice: something my kids haven't drawn on
Skin of choice: My wife, when she is fresh out of the shower
Favourite cartoon character: Ryouko from Tenchi Muyo
Personal Quote: "To understand someone, learn how they think first."
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Duskglow1 Featured By Owner Nov 19, 2014  Hobbyist
You have been Hugged by Duskglow1!!!! *Hug* Spread the DA love around! (you can copy and paste this message on their userpage!) 

RULES:
1- You can hug the PERSON who hugged you!
2- You -MUST- hug 10 other people, at least!
3- You should hug them IN PUBLIC! Paste it on their page!
4- Random hugs are perfectly okay! (and sweet)
5- You should most definitely GET STARTED hugging right away!
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x-bossie-boots-x Featured By Owner Nov 9, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you so much my friend for faving my work it is very much appreciated ...so sorry for late replys :)
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LadyMiralys Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
:icontnxfav1::icontnxfav2::icontnxfav3:
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RLN Featured By Owner Oct 22, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
Most welcome.  Fernelle fav.me/d83qdes has a lovely shade of blue hair that is absolute kryptonite for me =D
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LadyMiralys Featured By Owner Oct 23, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Racing Girl Emoji (Heart shot wink) [V3] 
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tats2 Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Lyon thank you for the fav star by tats2
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x-bossie-boots-x Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Thank you for faving my work my friend it is very much appreciated :)
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RLN Featured By Owner Oct 3, 2014  Student Traditional Artist
You have made some very pretty art.  Believe me, the appreciation is on my end ^_^
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x-bossie-boots-x Featured By Owner Oct 19, 2014  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Wow thank you thats is very kind of you :)
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secretman9 Featured By Owner Sep 30, 2014  Hobbyist General Artist
Wahaha! I found you! It's Brendan from Design II here.
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